(sorry lol I just HAD to write that title to laugh at some of the other things in my life ) 

Sometimes you just have to laugh to keep from crying. One fabulous day yesterday was proceeded by one not so lovely day today. Granted I am having a fabulous hair day today but that’s about it. I found out why my dad had called me 6 times yesterday. My 97 year old grandmother has desided she has had enough with the drugs & to go on from now till the end on pain killers. Though she has been preparing our entire family for her eventual passing for the last 12 years it’s quite painful to realize that it’s really happening.  That this soon will be over and I don’t feel I knew nearly enough about her before she lost her memories.

Today I am greatful for the fact that it’s been 1 year since I thought my dad was dieing and he has not only not died, but made a marvelous recovery from mystery illness where he should have either stroked out or had a massive heart attack. Someone was really watching over him, though we still don’t know what the growths are on his adrenial glands.  I am thankful for my father in law’s health who scared us also at the same time last year with words like “minor stroke”.  I am thankful for my mother in law who looks at me with loving mom eyes that want to make me collapse into a puddle of tears. I am thankful for my sister in law who holds me while I sob over almost setting the oven on fire because people are using it for storage. I am thankful for my beautiful niece who seems to live to make us laugh and remember what is important. Most of all I am thankful for my husband who is my heart and soul and accepts me even when people I’ve known forever don’t.