This year has really been a time of change for me. I started down the long road to rid myself of the weight I have gained in the 5 years I’ve been married, I’ve finally settled back down in California and stopped fighting it and hating it. Instead I have finally started to embrace this state and way of living again. I do have to say that this is probably one of the most materialistic states in our union and it’s hard not getting caught up in it, but we are managing well I think. The Mr and I like things, but we are more about the experiences than the things.
Pictographs from Joshua Tree National Park
I started 2008 with so much gusto, ranting on and on about how this year would be so diffrent. Well in not so obvious ways it is. Finally once more, life is good, we are getting back into the groove of experiencing life on a daily basis again and notfalling into the trap of "Tomorrow".
Tomorrow is a pretty harmless looking word right? "Just do it tomorrow", "I’ll take care of that tomorrow", "wait until tomorrow". But every day is yesterday’s tomorrow, every day is one tick down in our lifes clock and what we don’t do and experience today is wasted. Why do we really put things off until tomorrow? Usually it’s because some part of us fears what might happen.
I can tell you that there are very few times in my life that I was not afraid of what might happen. One was when I married the Mr. Not all experiences in our life are so cut and dry though, there are the what if’s that creep in, but we must learn to not let them stop us. We must learn to be unafraid to make our own mark on the world. Not just to be a spectator of our own lives but really jump right in there, get our hands dirty and make it what we want it to be.
To go forward for our own happiness and well being regardless of what anyone else thinks or says. All ambitious dreams were laughed at. One point in all of our lives someone has scoffed at what we said we really wanted to do. Unfortunately these scoffs last a lot longer in our lives than the people who first uttered them. We remember someone laughing or nay-saying, or telling us it’s stupid and we cary this with us where ever we choose to go.
We must remember that the people who scoff us for giving our dreams and hopes voices are themselves just afraid to do the same. When do you stop letting them influence you? What is the tipping point that drives us full throttle into the creation of our own happiness?
I will give one of my ambitions voice today, will you follow?
I want in the next year to have some of my photography published.
What do you want?
