First for the knitting because that’s what ya all come here for anyways.
Another Koolhaas done. This time in Lambs Pride (left overs from my CPH)

Thermal progress

I’ve been getting emails (thanks guys!) from people worried about me. Honestly, I’m fine, and I know that I haven’t been filling pages of personal bs for a while.  Nothing is wrong, seriously, I’m ok.  What is happening is that I’m pulling back a little bit more. Focusing on myself, my family, and my own happiness. 

To many times I try to rush in, save people, fix their problems and make everything run smoothly again.  What ends up happening is that I end up heart broken that I can’t fix things, or people honestly don’t want things fixed, and they just don’t want my help.  The Mr has gotten fed up with this and together I have pulled back from the major dramas surrounding me.  I feel a little restless, but at peace simultaneously.

I have to understand that everyone will make their own decisions and their own paths and you know what? It has nothing to do with me.  Part of this small journey has been just not asking those questions I am dieing to know (I am probably way to nosey!).  Learning that my love and support can be enough with out opinions or (mis)guidence. That just because I disagree doesn’t mean I have to state it. And you know what? I haven’t been.  It’s just too much work for too little pay.

I’ve since found those who will write me emails or call me or text me with the simple words “how are YOU doing?”.  I never realized how much I was asking that and how little I was asked.  It’s a huge eye opener. So I’m quiet, and a little reflective. I can still get drawn into a huff quite easily, but I can now take a deep breath, and let it go.  

Last month showed me truely how quickly this life can be over. How little time we truely have.  It was the universes way of reminding me to fill my heart with only love, focus on the positive even more, and not get bogged down  with things I can’t or shouldn’t control.  It was “Shit or get off the pot” time. And this life is way to short for shit.