I’m back. I’m dirty, smelly, and oddly peaceful while also incredibly driven. One might say that I had a spiritual awakening in those woods over the nightly call of the vultures & light of the campfire. One might say that. I’m not sure if I would. I’m currently downloading 1000+ pictures. Seriously. 8GB is my new best friend.
Briefly what realiziation that I’ve come to is that I’ve been trying to catch up to those in my life that have children & bigger families than just my 2 (the Mr & I). Well, honestly, it came to me that I think I’m on a diffrent path. I don’t think that life was meant for me (and yes I get a little sad about it still). So it’s time to get off the frontage road, stop trying to paralle them, and take the dirt track to something new.
So, I don’t know where you are on the baby front, but honestly, have you thought about adopting? There are SO MANY babies out there who need you and Mr Man, and although they won’t have your DNA, you’d be the best mom ever. EVER.
By: Cassie on October 6, 2008
at 3:24 pm
Oh P, I’m reproductively challenged too [sigh]. I do have an idea what you’re going through. went through it for 20 years. What seems so easy for some….
Finally though I had to sit myself down and have serious words, and a reality check. Live vicariously through others’ children, and just look after what I do have instead of dwelling on what I don’t have. That’s the speech I gave myself. Most days it works. Then there are those days when I wish things had been different.
Adoption works for some…for me yes, but my for my Mr., no.
Stay strong. And keep doing what you’ve been doing. Your blog entertains me no end!
By: isa on October 6, 2008
at 9:52 pm
I’ve been thinking about the same things lately. My husband and I don’t have kids either. We’ve been very happily married for more than 11 years and just have not felt ready for it. I’m in my last year of my 30s and I still don’t feel ready. I’m coming to the realization that ship might well be sailing and it kind of makes me sad, as well. There is a drive in me, as a woman, to have a child. But I want to for the right reasons, not because i feel like I have to because there’s a clock ticking, you know?
By: Moni on October 6, 2008
at 10:51 pm
You know my views on adoption.
By: Cheryl on October 7, 2008
at 2:41 pm