Monday, again. This weekend was quite fab, we had the local FINISH IT party at my yarn shop & I got the chance to chat excessively (which is the only kind of chatting I can do) with some people I didn’t know as well.  I got quite a bit of work done on the second sleeve of the Copy Cat sweater. This sweater is for my awesomely wonderful cousin, it’s a copy of her fav (though falling apart) Gap sweater.

The most basic & most needed kind of sweater EVER!

In other news I have connected the sleeves of my FIL’s Christmas sweater to the body & am steadily decreasing away at the yoke. Soon (hopefully by Friday) I’ll be done.

Lastly in knitting news I’m test knitting a pair of Elinor’s Mittens which I’m seriously excited about.

In non-knitting news I’m a bit frustrated in my professional life. Frustrated because of how people innately treat each other, how only criticism and negativity are given and how no one can ever let you think that you maybe are doing something right or well (because that might give you a big head ya know).  I get “Remember Preita _____” a lot, which directly translates into “Remember Preita, I think your a dumb ass and even though I’ve never told you about this or can’t properly explain myself I’m going to make you feel bad about it”.  It can be hurtful, but I realize I’ve started doing the same thing that everyone else here does anyways, pull back into my shell, never take a chance on anything, ask stupid questions because it’s expected of us, and just do as I’m told.  No one talks to loudly because undoubtedly someone will tell you your wrong, and if you are truly unlucky you will actually be followed around the office while your mistake is being broad casted to everyone with ears. (Thankfully this last part has never happened to me as I’m sure I would turn pretty nasty on this behavior).

I guess it’s just tiring because no one seems to be able to communicate what they really want or need. One of the problems is the inter-usage of terms that I don’t see as interchangeable. So thus I don’t “get it”. Then there is the continual wishy washy decision making which leaves you with no real decision made and in trouble if you follow their directions, but also in trouble if you don’t.

Some days are better than others, some days are worse.  Sometimes I don’t know how I ever suceeded so well at helping running a business similar to this, and now that I am not even in charge of anything I can’t seem to do anything right.  I now have to triple check all my work to only get one “Remember Preita____”.

It’s just frustrating but honestly, bearable. You just can’t take anything personally, can’t be too friendly with anyone else here, and do just as your told.  It could be a hell of a lot worse that’s for sure, and sometimes a venting of frustrations are needed. I am thankful to be employed though, and I have to at the end of the day remember that.

Poor moral is more contagious than a cold.

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